Tired of fighting these demons they just keep comin' on back
I went home blacked out for the hell of it
I lost my patience with credence that sent me straight to the sack
I found a hole backed down and I fell in it

To tell you that I won't do what you want to
And I came back crying with my head in my shame
I ruined my own life at the loss of a friend
But I hope we're all good when I see you again
I said I won't do what you want to
Got my hope wrapped up in a bottle of pain
I've got my own life and I'll never pretend
But I hope we're all good when I see you again

I begged and pleaded for sadness
Even asked the man above
Already had my share of madness
But I lost that truth with love
I been lost in the mud kickin' it deep in the dirt
I planted my seed so I could grow back my worth
Hope to shovel the pain pat it down to the earth
I can call for the rain and dance on top of my hurt
Loose trance 'til they come by
Shrivel up and skrrt
Lose stance with my own side
I ain't got no words

The pain is so high, it fucks with my brain
And I don't know why I can't push it away
I got a million reasons but I'm searching for more
Tired of fighting demons, but I keep writing more

To tell you that I won't do what you want to
And I came back crying with my head in my shame
I ruined my own life at the loss of a friend
But I hope we're all good when I see you again
I said I won't do what you want to
Got my hope wrapped up in a bottle of pain
I've got my own life and I'll never pretend
But I hope we're all good when I see you again

Pressure, pressure under my skin
Messed up, messed up look what I did
Replay, replay over my head
DJ, DJ spin it again
If there's one thing that I got right while goin' through this hell
It's that your fam just left right as soon as my own fell
And if you need me, I got you I just want to fix this
You hate me, I got you it's none of my business
Loose dance 'til they come by
Fillin' up my cup
Lose stance with my own side
I was never enough

The pain is so high, it fucks with my brain
And I don't know why I can't push it away
I got a million reasons but I'm searching for more
Tired of fighting demons, but I keep writing more

To tell you that I won't do what you want to
And I came back crying with my head in my shame
I ruined my own life at the loss of a friend
But I hope we're all good when I see you again
I said I won't do what you want to
Got my hope wrapped up in a bottle of pain
I've got my own life and I'll never pretend
But I hope we're all good when I see you again